Changes

I used to always blog whenever I enter a new age. What ever happened? Things happened. Thinking changed. Abilities changed. Emotions changed.

I'm feeling like a rubber band again.

But I'm still thankful that above all, there were more good things than bad. =)
 
It's just some things that cannot change, no thanks to some parts that have no willpower to change. Also no thanks to some parts that do not even want to change.

My worst enemy is STARTING. Blog posts included.

I will definitely make sure that I'll jot down stuffs about plunging into my new age, before the new semester starts. But thinking about the coming semester tears me apart with the pressure of wanting to place myself in a shoebox and the force of wanting to be an unstoppable kung fu fighter.

Right now, I just need ideas.

And a good pair of sports shoes. xP

So here's a pretty thing I found. =D

Current obsession: Fluffy, fat flowers :3

Patches of Randomness

Let's have a quick list:


1.   I'm now doing my practical at the campus radio. I gave a mental pat on my back for making a wise decision of being here, as I'm also running other stuff as well (campus radio b-day fest, campus journalism and a theatre programme). 


2.   I hate paperwork for events.


3.    People might think doing practical within the campus and managing the campus radio is a piece of sugar-crusted donut, but they have NO IDEA how challenging it is to pick up the pieces of what has been left and start anew. With two-third of all the practical students actually managing it, truth be told.


4.   I'm lacking AND brimming full of the capacity to care at the same time. Interestingly, I feel nonchalant about this.


5.   I find myself getting bored with romantic love and marriage. Oops. But I'd love to have more friend love and family love. They feel warmer now.


6.   I'm tired of incompetent and/or inefficient people. Not saying I'm all that but I try. I miss working with people who can work. (PS: I miss working with guys too! xP)


7.   I'm disciplining myself in small yet effective ways; stuff that I never did before. And it feels G-R-E-A-T! \^0^/ Hope I can continue this enthusiasm though...


8.   Need to constantly remind self that humans are entitled to their thoughts and opinions. But that doesn't mean they couldn't be irking.


9.   I don't know if I should pursue my theatrical ideas. In some sense, they are quite personal. Yet why this persistent want of showcasing them in reality?


10.  Suddenly I kinda miss my fantasy crush. Mnyaaawaahahahahaaaa... X3
(EDIT: I finally FINALLY met him three days after posting this mnyaawwaahahhahaaaa... My heart did a tiny leap xDD)




PS: I'm positive that I have OCD = Obsessive Cheese Disorder. Grrrfff...

Current songs: From my old 'burnt CD' collection.

A Dirty Mind

Come on, now. A dirty mind doesn't have to be filled with just sexual themes. Can we think of other things that could make our minds dirty? Let's decide.

I've been exposed to dirtiness since I was a kid. Weird, yes, which became a part of me. I thank my mom, though, for opening up my mind so much of the unconventional, even taboo subjects that no other parents would even dare to hint at their children.

That's why sometimes my mouth tend to let out things that seem impure. Sexual themes? Got it covered. Sexuality? Sealed and delivered. Verbal abuse? Whenever necessary. Female dog-ing? To those fortunate souls.

Sometimes I can't help but to blurt them out, coz I used to and still, hang out with like-minded people like me. Of course, only in front of people who could handle them. I don't think others who couldn't, could make it. xD

An example of a situation; please observe below:

Place   :   Inside of car.

Time   :   Night.

Characters   :   Two friends and I.

A car passenger friend mentioned RAIN, the biggest Korean celebrity who makes females (and queers) go oh-take-my-body-now, and rain, one of nature's typical phenomena. I responded that the latter rain is cold, but the former rain is hot. Trust me, when something is spoken in your mother tongue, it sounds more raunchier.

The car driver friend turned behind, gave me an 'okaaay' look, turned back in front and said THAT has a double meaning.

I was like, hey, better to have it out then have it in! Not like a case study -- a certain educator caught red-handed.

Driver friend corrected me by saying that it's not a case study, but a literature review.

I swear I laughed like a hyena on crack.


~


Old friends, you already know me by now. New friends, brace yourselves. xD

That's why I love you all. Aww. ♥


Current obsession: CATS! 

A Tralala Feeling

A tralala feeling is a kind of feeling close to an euphoric state between heavy folds of I-couldn't-care-less and a huge slab of nudging want to run around in an open space cackling like a bumbling idiot.


Last week before finals. Ngehh.


Dad heard me deejay live on air! Felt so awesome x) To have him of all people listening to me, made me feel so... indescribable. Even though he didn't tune in throughout the whole show, which is kinda like, aww man, coz I had a special tribute for him at the end of it. But still, it was okay. Still too awesometastic, really. ♥ you, Dad!


So these days I'm also like this:

With considerable amount of this:

Waaaaay too much of this:

And most of the current time, like this:

Tralalalalaalaaaaa~

Current need: A bath

I've Fallen in Love with a Voice

And those two dimples are to die for! Grrfff. x3

Afgan’s voice and dimples, will you marry me? xD

Current mode: Obsessed ♥ 

A Lifeless Week

My life-o-meter has the inevitability of going up or coming down. And this week is not my week at all. Just wanna get home as swiftly as I could.

Throughout the week I was feeling like this:

and this:

Some of this:

Dragging the days like this:

Home + Lotsa dessert + Strong coffee + Sleep = Euphoria


Current time: 1:13 a.m.

A Happy Day

A happy day consist of:


1) Having someone to show you that there's a listener, who tuned in to your campus radio that you're currently doing your practicum on as a weekly deejay, commented on the radio blog saying that he/she (although it strongly suggested male) wants to be friends with you (and the person posted that while he/she listened to you slammin' it on air xD). You only knew this after you've done with another live show rather messily coz you didn't finish writing your script and you were writing it as you were talking live on your show.

2) Having a cool lecturer telling you after you finished your show that he switched on the campus radio in the department's office while you were on air and the Head of Department heard you and thought you were okay, and not bad. And that same lecturer tells you to keep up the good work.

3) Having short, crazy, funny moments with your bestie that didn't make any sense to others but the two of you in a dry, theorerical class.

4) Having a classmate telling you that your other cool lecturer whipped out your past radio programme assignment for his entire class to hear, then taking your past scriptwriting assignment to be photocopied as a sample for the whole class.

5) Having a class cancelled after a class of writing notes from slides until your fingers felt like falling off your hands.

6) Having friends who would help you out with your radio programme promo at the very last minute after asking them less than two hours beforehand. And the result turned out AH-MAY-ZING. xD

7) Having your awesome practicum lecturer to edit your already-recorded radio programme promo with TWO spectacular background music. \^0^/ Now you have TWO freakin' awesometastic programme ID! *para para dance*

8) Having to laugh so hard so much with your best mates until you felt like you were about to pee in your pants.

9) Having a super nice acquaintance to help you out with the thing that makes you feel most guilty about losing.

10) Having a friend texting you saying how tired she was after being so busy, but still said that she loves you.

11) Having to shampoo you hair and have a quiet night by yourself in your room, in your dorm. Oh, having to do your laundry too.

12) Having to call your grandma whom you haven't speak to for a while, after seeing your mom posted a lovely status about herself visiting grandma the day before and the both of them chatted for four hours, then your mom left with a smile on her face. They survived each other for four hours without a fight. A miracle!


Thank you, God. You are truy Great! ♥


Current feeling: Content ;)

Better

Things will be better.

Because blue doesn't suit me.

And God has awesome plans for the future.

I'm gonna take it strong, yet easy.


As always.

In my own ways.


=)

Current mode: Better ;P

Out of This

Of these that upset me

These which frustrate me

Rendered me helpless

Get me out of this.

Of these that demotivate me

These which empty me

Rendered me lifeless

Get me out of this.

Of these that guilt me

These which eat me

Rendered me to nothingness

Get me out of this.

Of these that sadden me

These which overwhelm me

Rendered me to wretchedness

Get me out if this.

Please, please, please, please.

so my soul could be a bit of ease.

Current mode: Unpleasant

An Accident and Multiple Birthdays

Accidental change of layout, that is. I tried this seemingly-cool-but-when-tried-sadly-not blog template, then blankly clicked a button which totally changed my old template. Without me saving it first. 


Sigh. Oh well, I had in mind already to change my blog layout a bit anyway, so here it is, as simple as ever. No fancy-smancy image header, just the real thing, right in yer face. Hihi.


Tomorrow, or rather, later, since it's now 4:07am, I'm going out to chill with me pals to celebrate their BIRFDAES! Since all of them but ME has narrow gaps in between their birthdays (and two of them having the same birthdate! I'm totally outcasted, yes.) Hangout, chill, lepak, and then watch theatre. My extra golden little fish. Whee! xD


Must sleep now. How-lah, to wake up in the morn later? Haiyaa.


Current mood: Sleep-defiant

Selamat Datang!

Hello everyone! Finally, after much much stalling + procrastinating for this welcoming post, it is now officially brought forth to old and new readers alike! This blog’s actually finished a week ago but my muse went missing somewhere so half of my brain died for a good while, but now it’s revived back and better than before! New link, new layout and new stuffs around yayy! Welcoming a new change feels good, yup yup xD

Now, some explaining to do. The new link of my blog ain’t that new, it’s more of an updated one (you can notice it yourself =P). It’s a new life chapter rejuvenated from the old blog (may it R.I.P.), so it’s sad legacy still lives on. That’s why my old posts from it are still here in loving memory, for you and I to reminisce. Note that, you will be able to see the differences between new posts originated here and those from the previous. It will be fairly clear, assurance guaranteed.

This layout version is back to black baby, coz I miss it, and apparently a LOT of blogs out there suddenly took a toll of wanting to go all minimalist white like I did with my previous layout version II. Initially I wanted to do white as well but with the sudden popularity of the colour (or lack thereof), and remembering how my old blog suffered with hardly any postings when it went white, I changed my mind and got back to black! And interesting enough a couple of my fellow blogger friends have theirs of the same colour too. Yes, great minds do think alike. So black rocks on! xD

I’ve always wanted the colour combination of bright purple and fresh green on my blog, so I finally did! And let me tell you these colours look appalling on a white background, hence more excuse to use black (have I said the word enough? xD). Me also likey the pink, I guess it’s another way of a new embrace on the colour, much to the annoyance of a couple of my anti-pink friends, hehe. C’mon, I used to hate pink too but isn’t that just another phase (and they haven’t got out of theirs? Ok ok, kiddin’ xP)? A scatter of a ‘lil pink here and there doesn’t hurt. Hot pink is ♥! And it’s here to stay!

So what’s up with those weird word combos conquering your computer screen beforehand whenever you open up this blog? It’s just something that came up from within the twisted mind of yours truly, plus with the help of a site that I wouldn’t give you people the luxury of knowing. Mwahahahaa!

Okay, the green blob? Waddup with that? Green blob is [dun dun dun] ...mysterious. Funky. Awesome. Yet unpredictable. Erratic. Random. Behold, the green blob—Green Blob. Remember Flubber? Haha I love that movie xD But Flubber wasn’t the inspiration for Green Blob. It’s just something that came up from within the twisted mind of yours truly.

Oy oy, where are you running?

Now, what can you expect from this new and improved blog? Read on, lovelies:

1. More frequent (than ever before) postings. Yes, even if it’s mere two lines. *Brit-style* Haa!

2. More pictures! Which I wasn’t used to before!

3. More random stuff you would never expect (re-read blog title)!

4. Extras on footnote of postings, ranging from current music I’m listening to, to current male celebrity body obsession. *smirk* I know you want to know!

5. What’s this—download links? Betcha didn’t expect that!

6. More list posts such as this, coz I find it awesomely handy when you want to say a million things in bite-size info under one main topic. Woowoot for lists! xD

There you go, peeps! So sit back, de-stress and feel free to poke and prod around this ‘lil bloggie of mine. And enjoy the ride ahead.

Current music: Shinedown - Her Name is Alice; Shinedown - Call Me